life..the complication

I am so full of pity and anger right now. I feel bad for you because you are never going to be happy with yourself and you are probably going to get an std. I have always thought....wow he gives off that bachelor vibe but i was stupid and went against my better judgement and gave you a chance. I knew where it was going when i first started but out of consideration for your feelings i kept going. Now... I am angry because i let myself do that and you think its ok to continue to do these things to people. I want to give you the rudest awakening you have ever heard of. I cant help but be nice to you soemtimes though. 

Also... now there is someone who likes me who I totally do not like at all. I mean he is a nice guy but romantically... totally not interested. How do I let him down  easy without being a bitch? gr argh

star light star bright

I havent written in a while because to be honest my life got crazy and I forgot about this thing. Anywho....I jut got the shit scared out of me. For the people who read this on a normal basis, this will most likely mean nothing to you but I will try to make you understand. So I just had my voice lesson and my voice teacher was commenting on my recent performance. I performed in a recital on wednesday and I sang this song that I just absolutely love. My teacher asked me if I have ever been called a Mezzo soprano. It freaked me the fuck out. My entire life I have been a soprano. 

For those of you who dont understand think of it this way....imagine all your life someone says...you are a girl and than one day your mom tells you...hey your actually a dude. Its obviously not as drastic as that but i feel like sometimes people have to exaggerate in order to make a point. 

I dont know what else to write. things are kind of boring lately... 

actually....debbie and I have become friends again. She is a lot different not and things are awesome.