Yeah ... I couldn't think of a good title for this blog so I named it tired.
Today I worked for seven hours and went to this kid Cody's house for his birthday. It was him me Joey Liz and Colin and we made cookies and icing from scratch. It was fun. I ended up with a whole butt load of icing on my face because they thought it would be fun to have an icing war.
If you are reading my blog, please post a comment. I know there are people out there who are reading this and I would like to know who my "audience" is. I dont care if I dont like you or if you think its creepy that your reading my blog without me actually directly telling you about it. Whatever.. you know about it.... I hope youre enjoying hearing about my adventures.
Last of the day is this. I dont know why I cant get you out of my head. I havent talked to you in a while... probably like 8 months but all of a sudden you are just hanging out in my mind. I hung out with you a lot last year and than you really got on my nerves so I stopped talking to you but you were never rude with me. You were always really kind and understanding. You never quite understood why I stopped talking to you but you always said... when you come around I will be here. You trusted me so quickly... I think that might have scared me a bit. That along with me feeling like I was your only friend. You always called me to hang out... ....... If you liked me, I would have felt more comfortable than if you were just calling me and texting me all day everyday. I miss hanging out with you. I saw someone today that kind of looked like you and they were wearing the same cologne. It was weird. I feel like I cant just start talking to you again because a. it would be weird to just come out of left field and b. I dont want to hurt you or myself again.
A bit lost.....
Sara
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Home
Yo yo yo....I havent had the time to write so here I am.
Thursday I had my last three finals which were the performance part of Aural Theory, my jury, and my written theory. All of them went very well. I was freaking out about my Jury because I had no time to breath between my Aural and Jury. I made it work though. :)
When I got back to my apartment, I finished writing my paper for my acting class, packed and talked to people on the computer. I never thought I was very good at multi-tasking but apparently I am because I did all of those things and gave each one a lot of attention. After I moved out of my apartment I went to Debs so we could hang out before the Ugly Sweater party. The ugly sweater party was interesting to say the least. It was a bunch of people that I wouldn't put together, hanging out and watching christmas movies. I was happy when I got there because Steve went even though he wasnt feeling well... I dont think he had fun because he left early. :(
When we left the house we went to Debs and just hung out until I fell asleep on her recliner and woke up at 8:30 to drive home.
The drive home was nice because I had some me time and as I approached my town the snow on the side of the road became more apparent. That night I went to Wal*mart with my mom and her friend and I rode around in an electric scooter and acted a fool.
Today I woke up at like 10 and hung out with my brothers for a little bit until I had to go to work. I hate working at the place I work at so much but its money that I dont have and time that I do. It was a long shift to work...2-10.... but I guess it was nice. The people I worked with during the summer remembered me and made me feel "welcome". I got to see the kid I liked during the summer and I still might have a bit of a crush on him. At night it got so cold and I didnt have a sweater so the managers told me that I could wear his which was nice. lol Now i am sitting on my couch with my dog sleeping on my lap and my brother humming Tenacious D songs. I am exausted and I think I might be getting sick. Not bronchitis/pneumonia sick... like fever chills sick. I will take a bath and see how I feel tomorrow.
One little rant before I go...
I am about to make myself sound the a grinch... but I hate christmas time. I love what it stands for... family getting together and enjoying each others company and being happy to be alive.... BUT.... why cant we do this all the time. Why is it that ONE day out of the year do we buy a whole bunch of shit for each other and show how much we love each other? First off... I dont think that we need to buy each other really expensive and or gaudy things to show love or affection. A card or a hug or something small could fill the shoes of the new Wii Fit or a new snowboard. Along those same lines.... If we are going to get each other gifts I think we should use our knowledge of the person to buy gifts. For example... Little susie makes a christmas list of 6 things that she wants for christmas. This list says that she wants a barbie car, a kitchen set, a new bed, a puppy, roller blades and an easy bake oven. Now... why do her parents need a list to know what their daughter likes. I think we should pay more attention to our loved ones so that we can get something thoughtful. Jill got our group of friends a talking Andy doll... from 40-year-old virgin and I think that it pure genius. She knew what we liked because she spends time with us and knows our personalities. Its an inside joke between the 5 of us and she didnt need a list to make us happy.
I told my mom that I was going to be really really pissed off if she got me anything for christmas. She does enough for me throughout the year and I know she doesnt have the money to buy me stuff so that is my christmas present to her. I think she is still oging to buy me something but I really dont want her to.
OHH!!! this is another thing about christmas that bugs me. Christmas is supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year but people get really really bitchy and uptight. If prices arent right or if a store doesnt carry something that a person needs, people get soooooo mad. We should be relaxing with the ones we love .... not running around like chickens with our heads cut off away from our families.... burning holes in our pockets.
Be honest with yourself. Do you remember everything you got last year for christmas and everything that you gave to people? Do you still use everything that you got for christmas last year or did you use it a few times and than it wasnt new anymore so it became boring?
Now think... Do you remember who you spent christmas with last year or anything funny that might have happened?
I hope this entry made you think a little bit.
Peace Love and Good will toward men.... and women
Thursday I had my last three finals which were the performance part of Aural Theory, my jury, and my written theory. All of them went very well. I was freaking out about my Jury because I had no time to breath between my Aural and Jury. I made it work though. :)
When I got back to my apartment, I finished writing my paper for my acting class, packed and talked to people on the computer. I never thought I was very good at multi-tasking but apparently I am because I did all of those things and gave each one a lot of attention. After I moved out of my apartment I went to Debs so we could hang out before the Ugly Sweater party. The ugly sweater party was interesting to say the least. It was a bunch of people that I wouldn't put together, hanging out and watching christmas movies. I was happy when I got there because Steve went even though he wasnt feeling well... I dont think he had fun because he left early. :(
When we left the house we went to Debs and just hung out until I fell asleep on her recliner and woke up at 8:30 to drive home.
The drive home was nice because I had some me time and as I approached my town the snow on the side of the road became more apparent. That night I went to Wal*mart with my mom and her friend and I rode around in an electric scooter and acted a fool.
Today I woke up at like 10 and hung out with my brothers for a little bit until I had to go to work. I hate working at the place I work at so much but its money that I dont have and time that I do. It was a long shift to work...2-10.... but I guess it was nice. The people I worked with during the summer remembered me and made me feel "welcome". I got to see the kid I liked during the summer and I still might have a bit of a crush on him. At night it got so cold and I didnt have a sweater so the managers told me that I could wear his which was nice. lol Now i am sitting on my couch with my dog sleeping on my lap and my brother humming Tenacious D songs. I am exausted and I think I might be getting sick. Not bronchitis/pneumonia sick... like fever chills sick. I will take a bath and see how I feel tomorrow.
One little rant before I go...
I am about to make myself sound the a grinch... but I hate christmas time. I love what it stands for... family getting together and enjoying each others company and being happy to be alive.... BUT.... why cant we do this all the time. Why is it that ONE day out of the year do we buy a whole bunch of shit for each other and show how much we love each other? First off... I dont think that we need to buy each other really expensive and or gaudy things to show love or affection. A card or a hug or something small could fill the shoes of the new Wii Fit or a new snowboard. Along those same lines.... If we are going to get each other gifts I think we should use our knowledge of the person to buy gifts. For example... Little susie makes a christmas list of 6 things that she wants for christmas. This list says that she wants a barbie car, a kitchen set, a new bed, a puppy, roller blades and an easy bake oven. Now... why do her parents need a list to know what their daughter likes. I think we should pay more attention to our loved ones so that we can get something thoughtful. Jill got our group of friends a talking Andy doll... from 40-year-old virgin and I think that it pure genius. She knew what we liked because she spends time with us and knows our personalities. Its an inside joke between the 5 of us and she didnt need a list to make us happy.
I told my mom that I was going to be really really pissed off if she got me anything for christmas. She does enough for me throughout the year and I know she doesnt have the money to buy me stuff so that is my christmas present to her. I think she is still oging to buy me something but I really dont want her to.
OHH!!! this is another thing about christmas that bugs me. Christmas is supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year but people get really really bitchy and uptight. If prices arent right or if a store doesnt carry something that a person needs, people get soooooo mad. We should be relaxing with the ones we love .... not running around like chickens with our heads cut off away from our families.... burning holes in our pockets.
Be honest with yourself. Do you remember everything you got last year for christmas and everything that you gave to people? Do you still use everything that you got for christmas last year or did you use it a few times and than it wasnt new anymore so it became boring?
Now think... Do you remember who you spent christmas with last year or anything funny that might have happened?
I hope this entry made you think a little bit.
Peace Love and Good will toward men.... and women
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7VuV5q9kas&feature=channel
I feel like more people need to know about this. If you can help in ANY way... please do so. This place has made me who I am today.
I feel like more people need to know about this. If you can help in ANY way... please do so. This place has made me who I am today.
The girl behind the mask
I have 15 minutes to write this blog because I have my acting final but I have to make copies of things so I have to rush bit... this blog might be in two parts.
Yesterday I had tutoring, I worked with Bette than I worked with my scene partner on the scene im going to be performing in like 45 minutes. When I was done working, I went over to the little cafeteria downstairs and ate with Jill and Deb. We had some Nachos and stuff and went to Deb and Jills to watch some movies. While the movies were on, we were having conversations and my vegetarianism always seems to come up. I dont know why. Anyway .... we had a long discussion about that and that conversation turned into something about euthanasia (sp). For the first time in my friendship with them I felt like I was having a real conversation about something that really mattered in the world. (I feel like im being very general but I will come back and fill in the gaps when I have more time.) As we were having this conversation I really realized how messed up the world is. You have a guy who kills someone, gets convicted, and goes to death row. As I see it... I dont think that death row should exist. I dont think and eye for an eye is the way it should be. The person that goes to death row is going to sit in a cell for the rest of their time and than they are going to be killed... they are going to be killed for killing someone else. When does the cycle end? The government says its ok therefore its ok? I dont think so.. A jury says yes this man has committed a crime therefore we are going to send him somewhere to have the same thing done to him that got him in there in the first place. I dont know if that made sense... but it did in my head... and thats all that matters here. I think that the people that kill people or commit horrible crimes should be test dummies for the rest of their lives. Instead of testing medications on animals and things of that nature, put these criminals to work. Most medications are pulled off of the shelves because animals are unreliable test subjects. Animals dont have the same genetic make up as humans do so why would you test a medication that you are going to give to a human on an animal? Some peoples logic is so fuckin stupid.
I will elaborate a little more later... maybe.
I must be off to do my acting final. UGH
One more day of finals :/
Peace
I wrote more earlier but my computer freaked out on me and I lost all of my new stuff... I am annoyed by that but you cant change it. It always sucks when stuff like that happens though because you come back to try and write it all over again and it is never quite the same. Oh well...
I dont feel like writing anything ground breaking or exciting right now. The stuff I wrote before was really juicy stuff and I felt like is was going to give people a real idea of how my mind worked and stuff like that but whatever. You will have to hear my thoughts sometime in the future.
Basically... if you have ANY questions about any part of my life... just ask. I would rather people ask me a question than to assume.
Yesterday I had tutoring, I worked with Bette than I worked with my scene partner on the scene im going to be performing in like 45 minutes. When I was done working, I went over to the little cafeteria downstairs and ate with Jill and Deb. We had some Nachos and stuff and went to Deb and Jills to watch some movies. While the movies were on, we were having conversations and my vegetarianism always seems to come up. I dont know why. Anyway .... we had a long discussion about that and that conversation turned into something about euthanasia (sp). For the first time in my friendship with them I felt like I was having a real conversation about something that really mattered in the world. (I feel like im being very general but I will come back and fill in the gaps when I have more time.) As we were having this conversation I really realized how messed up the world is. You have a guy who kills someone, gets convicted, and goes to death row. As I see it... I dont think that death row should exist. I dont think and eye for an eye is the way it should be. The person that goes to death row is going to sit in a cell for the rest of their time and than they are going to be killed... they are going to be killed for killing someone else. When does the cycle end? The government says its ok therefore its ok? I dont think so.. A jury says yes this man has committed a crime therefore we are going to send him somewhere to have the same thing done to him that got him in there in the first place. I dont know if that made sense... but it did in my head... and thats all that matters here. I think that the people that kill people or commit horrible crimes should be test dummies for the rest of their lives. Instead of testing medications on animals and things of that nature, put these criminals to work. Most medications are pulled off of the shelves because animals are unreliable test subjects. Animals dont have the same genetic make up as humans do so why would you test a medication that you are going to give to a human on an animal? Some peoples logic is so fuckin stupid.
I will elaborate a little more later... maybe.
I must be off to do my acting final. UGH
One more day of finals :/
Peace
I wrote more earlier but my computer freaked out on me and I lost all of my new stuff... I am annoyed by that but you cant change it. It always sucks when stuff like that happens though because you come back to try and write it all over again and it is never quite the same. Oh well...
I dont feel like writing anything ground breaking or exciting right now. The stuff I wrote before was really juicy stuff and I felt like is was going to give people a real idea of how my mind worked and stuff like that but whatever. You will have to hear my thoughts sometime in the future.
Basically... if you have ANY questions about any part of my life... just ask. I would rather people ask me a question than to assume.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Wake up!!! Its a marching band!
The title of this blog is related to my current state. Tonight I went to sleep at like 10:30 and it was simply incredible. I havent fallen asleep that early in quite a while because im always on the go but I didnt make myself go anywhere tonight. I just laid down to watch scrubs and fell asleep. At 1:30 I was woken up by the obnoxious loud voices of my room mates and her friends. I dont know if you have ever been woken up by someone screaming at the top of their lungs.... or loud music but that is what she sounds like. She is naturally a loud person and when she is sitting right outside my door she sounds like the cybals to a marching band. Maybe one day when I know she drank WAY too much I will steal some cymbals from Wilson and smash them in her ears as she sleeps.
Now its almost 2 and I wont be able to go back to sleep unless it gets quiet again.
Today was Garrisons and Stiebers studio recitals. They went very well from what I saw. Garrisons studio was first and it was short and sweet. Everyone sang very well.... some better than others... but all in all very good. Anthony arranged have yourself a Merry little Christmas for their encore and it was VERY pretty. Stiebers recital went very well. I was second in the program and I sang Juliettes Waltz. I wasnt sure if I was going to be singing it because of my current pneumonia but like always my body was like... we will be nice today. So I sang that and than I sang Das Verlassene Magdlein which I messed up on.. but im over it. Everyone else did really well. Our encore was really funny. We danced the thriller and other various group dances which is always a good time. My mom almost didnt see me because she didnt listen to me and didnt leave herself enough time to get through traffic. She ended up walking in right as Stieber was talking at the beginning. Her friend came with her and at the end, instead of getting flowers, she gave me a huge tray of special K bars. It was really funny. I guess im a weird girl because I think that flowers, as pretty as they are, are a waste. I would rather someone give me money or a tray or special K bars...something I am going to use... instead of giving me something that is going to be pretty for about 5 hours and than slowly die. Its all about the thought but I hate it when people waste money.
Ummmmmmmmm....... Yesterday... I went to the mall and tried on some dresses. Some of them were sooooo cute and there is one that sticks out in my mind from Macys I think... and it looked really good on me but I didnt have money so I didnt get it. I only went because Sara wanted to go for a dress for juries. After dress shopping, we went to Debs, made dollar store cookies, and watched south park christmas episodes and than Dark knight. We didnt watch all of dark knight because I felt like shit and wanted to leave. I feel bad for asking them to drive me home but I didnt have my car. Im sure theyre over it.
Well... thats my update
If you are reading this....... all you thousands of people out there!!!..... feel free to comment. There is a guest sign in ... I think.... and you can just say whatever... let me know your reading.
Oh and sorry for my bad grammer. I dont even know if I spelled grammer right..... Im tired..
Evelyn
Now its almost 2 and I wont be able to go back to sleep unless it gets quiet again.
Today was Garrisons and Stiebers studio recitals. They went very well from what I saw. Garrisons studio was first and it was short and sweet. Everyone sang very well.... some better than others... but all in all very good. Anthony arranged have yourself a Merry little Christmas for their encore and it was VERY pretty. Stiebers recital went very well. I was second in the program and I sang Juliettes Waltz. I wasnt sure if I was going to be singing it because of my current pneumonia but like always my body was like... we will be nice today. So I sang that and than I sang Das Verlassene Magdlein which I messed up on.. but im over it. Everyone else did really well. Our encore was really funny. We danced the thriller and other various group dances which is always a good time. My mom almost didnt see me because she didnt listen to me and didnt leave herself enough time to get through traffic. She ended up walking in right as Stieber was talking at the beginning. Her friend came with her and at the end, instead of getting flowers, she gave me a huge tray of special K bars. It was really funny. I guess im a weird girl because I think that flowers, as pretty as they are, are a waste. I would rather someone give me money or a tray or special K bars...something I am going to use... instead of giving me something that is going to be pretty for about 5 hours and than slowly die. Its all about the thought but I hate it when people waste money.
Ummmmmmmmm....... Yesterday... I went to the mall and tried on some dresses. Some of them were sooooo cute and there is one that sticks out in my mind from Macys I think... and it looked really good on me but I didnt have money so I didnt get it. I only went because Sara wanted to go for a dress for juries. After dress shopping, we went to Debs, made dollar store cookies, and watched south park christmas episodes and than Dark knight. We didnt watch all of dark knight because I felt like shit and wanted to leave. I feel bad for asking them to drive me home but I didnt have my car. Im sure theyre over it.
Well... thats my update
If you are reading this....... all you thousands of people out there!!!..... feel free to comment. There is a guest sign in ... I think.... and you can just say whatever... let me know your reading.
Oh and sorry for my bad grammer. I dont even know if I spelled grammer right..... Im tired..
Evelyn
Friday, December 12, 2008
More
So I got cut off yesterday, but there wasnt much else to write.
I am sitting in the computer lab with all of these intrumentalists and I am trying to focus on this play dialouge that needs to be memorized. Its not working out too well.
This semester I have had such a problem with focus. I dont know what it is. I guess as people mature they change and their interests and priorities change. This scares me a little bit.
Lets walk a little deeper in whats been going on in my head lately.
I believe that I am finally over what has been nagging me for the past year or so. I am not going to go deeper into that because I know what I mean and I wanted to document that for the future.
I am scared shitless. That is the general emotion that I have had for a while. I love singing and I love music. For so long it has been my life and what makes me completely happy. Lately, I have been having second thoughs about choosing music as my major. What if I am not good enough to make it in the opera or music world. I dont know how I compare to the other girls in conservatories who are my age or younger. What the hell am I doing at Rowan? Like sometimes I really just want to leave.... but other times I feel like this is where I should be. I know I shouldn't base my desicions on other people but I do. Rowan is paying for MY TUITION to be a student and get the training that I need. I love my friends and the people that I am surrounded by even though I get frustrated with them quickly. I never let that show.... I dont think. I figure that is going to happen anywhere. Is Rowan worth the money? or would I get better training somewhere else where I could get a job easier? Yes Rowan has the Opera scenes and everything but c'mon.... if you go to a conservatory you get ridiculous training and ....ugh I dont know. PLUSSSSSS!!!! your voice is so sensitive to everything around you. If you scream to loudly, eat the wrong food, drink the wrong beverage... anything... you could be compromising your career. In a split second, everything you worked so hard for could be gone. I compare that to surgeons though... if they are sawing something out in the barn... No i dont know why a surgeon would be working on a farm.. BUT... if they make one mistake their hands are compromised and they cant work on people anymore. I want more time to be able to think about these things. I wish there wasnt such a rush to decide the rest of your life. I am only 19 years old. I want to have fun and just be young and make mistakes. I live in a world that isnt made for me. I wish I could just live in the jungle with some random tribe. The aboriginals would be awesome... but they eat bugs and shit. But yeah the aboriginals would be awesome... they just chill in the outback and live with nature. America creates such uptight twatsickles and I dont want to deal with some of this shit anymore.
That went a little off topic but whatever.
So yeah.... I guess thats one or two things floating around in my head.
I cant think of anymore names for myself...
The gullible one
I am sitting in the computer lab with all of these intrumentalists and I am trying to focus on this play dialouge that needs to be memorized. Its not working out too well.
This semester I have had such a problem with focus. I dont know what it is. I guess as people mature they change and their interests and priorities change. This scares me a little bit.
Lets walk a little deeper in whats been going on in my head lately.
I believe that I am finally over what has been nagging me for the past year or so. I am not going to go deeper into that because I know what I mean and I wanted to document that for the future.
I am scared shitless. That is the general emotion that I have had for a while. I love singing and I love music. For so long it has been my life and what makes me completely happy. Lately, I have been having second thoughs about choosing music as my major. What if I am not good enough to make it in the opera or music world. I dont know how I compare to the other girls in conservatories who are my age or younger. What the hell am I doing at Rowan? Like sometimes I really just want to leave.... but other times I feel like this is where I should be. I know I shouldn't base my desicions on other people but I do. Rowan is paying for MY TUITION to be a student and get the training that I need. I love my friends and the people that I am surrounded by even though I get frustrated with them quickly. I never let that show.... I dont think. I figure that is going to happen anywhere. Is Rowan worth the money? or would I get better training somewhere else where I could get a job easier? Yes Rowan has the Opera scenes and everything but c'mon.... if you go to a conservatory you get ridiculous training and ....ugh I dont know. PLUSSSSSS!!!! your voice is so sensitive to everything around you. If you scream to loudly, eat the wrong food, drink the wrong beverage... anything... you could be compromising your career. In a split second, everything you worked so hard for could be gone. I compare that to surgeons though... if they are sawing something out in the barn... No i dont know why a surgeon would be working on a farm.. BUT... if they make one mistake their hands are compromised and they cant work on people anymore. I want more time to be able to think about these things. I wish there wasnt such a rush to decide the rest of your life. I am only 19 years old. I want to have fun and just be young and make mistakes. I live in a world that isnt made for me. I wish I could just live in the jungle with some random tribe. The aboriginals would be awesome... but they eat bugs and shit. But yeah the aboriginals would be awesome... they just chill in the outback and live with nature. America creates such uptight twatsickles and I dont want to deal with some of this shit anymore.
That went a little off topic but whatever.
So yeah.... I guess thats one or two things floating around in my head.
I cant think of anymore names for myself...
The gullible one
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Reinvention
The weather is dreary and it is taking my mood with it.
Hello blog world. I haven't been around for 2 months or so and I figured it was time to update. I remembered that this existed when my friend Steve told me about his Live Journal. Blogger is so much cooler.
I had class today and I had rehearsal which technically is a class but I dont consider it the same thing. Last night was ridiculous and I dont remember much from it.... I just remember focusing a lot. I am not supposed to take cough medicine but I did and I learned my lesson. As scary as everything was though, I kind of want to take more. THe feeling was so freeing and my worries just went out the window. I have to finish this later becasue I am getting picked up by Deb and I have rehearsal tonight. After rehearsal we are going to the Russians place for a party for the Canadian. haha I love them ... theyre funny people.
Ta ta for now.
Rhia
Hello blog world. I haven't been around for 2 months or so and I figured it was time to update. I remembered that this existed when my friend Steve told me about his Live Journal. Blogger is so much cooler.
I had class today and I had rehearsal which technically is a class but I dont consider it the same thing. Last night was ridiculous and I dont remember much from it.... I just remember focusing a lot. I am not supposed to take cough medicine but I did and I learned my lesson. As scary as everything was though, I kind of want to take more. THe feeling was so freeing and my worries just went out the window. I have to finish this later becasue I am getting picked up by Deb and I have rehearsal tonight. After rehearsal we are going to the Russians place for a party for the Canadian. haha I love them ... theyre funny people.
Ta ta for now.
Rhia
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