because the world is round.

OK. the day after my last post i hung out with the boy. We went to the back of rowan hall. I have never been so comfortable with someone right away. Something still just feels off about it all though. I hope its nothing. Going camping next week. Getting a bed tomorrow. I am puppy sitting for a rambunctious puppy. She is always biting. Can not wait until school starts... sort of.
Life is weird. I start "dating" someone and like 4 or 5 people come out of the wood-work and tell me that they like me. What a strange world it is.

Thank you Kate Nash

These lyrics are how I am feeling as of late to a T.

You're chatting to me, like we connect
But I don't even know if we're still friends
It's so confusing,
Understanding you is making me not want to do

And think things like: 'I know I should do'
But I trip up and then I lose
I hate looking like a fool

I just want your kiss boy, kiss boy, kiss boy
I just want your kiss
I just want your kiss boy, kiss boy, kiss boy
I just want your kiss

The lights are on
And someone's home
I'm not sure if they're alone
There's someone else inside my head
Living there too fills me with dread

This paranoia is distressing
But I spend most of my night guessing
Are we not, are we together
Will this make our lives much better

I'm not in love
I just wanna be touched

I just want your kiss boy, kiss boy, kiss boy
I just want your kiss
I just want your kiss boy, kiss boy, kiss boy
I just want your kiss
Wops I think I've got too close
'Cause now he's telling me I'm girl that he likes most
Now I messed up it's not the first time
I'm not saying you're not on my mind
I hope that you don't think I'm unkind

I just want your kiss boy, kiss boy, kiss boy
I just want your kiss
I just want your kiss boy, kiss boy, kiss boy
I just want your kiss

Ogres have layers.... so does stephanie

LAYER ONE: On the Outside--

Full Name: Stephanie Rhiannon Krizek
Birthday:: June 8
Single or Taken?: Dating...
School: Rowan
Major: Vocal peformance
Eye Color: Hazel...most of the time green
Hair Color: brown
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: gemini



LAYER TWO: On the Inside--

Your Fears: the elderly (certain ones), fish, bugs, needles
Goal(s): Make a career out of performing
Regrets: Not standing up for myself more often.
Relieve Stress: Drive around in silence, sit in my apartment with just candles as light listening to music, cleaning
Hardest thing ever dealt with: elementary school
What upsets you: liars, yelling, closed mindedness
Vent about something: Sams club can go f$(% its self. I hate that place so much and if I could find a job that paid as well I would take that job in a heart beat. People ....workers and customers alike... have sticks shoved in places where they shouldn't be and they should take the health allies card and get them removed because it is effecting peoples performance.
Your thoughts first waking up: Ugh....
Yesterday: was my day off. I almost got a tattoo with coco but I didnt have enough money so we got our toes done instead. After coco left to go home, I went to the mall with amber and got a dollar massage in the chair sent from god. Came back to my apartment and watched a movie
Today: Worked all day
Tomorrow: Working... again. Oh freakin joy
Your most missed memory: school time activities



LAYER FOUR: You’re picking--

Pepsi or Coke: ew.. soda sucks
McDonald's or Burger King: double ew.
Single or Group dates: they both can be nice in different ways
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Eh... lipton I guess
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: again... ew

LAYER FIVE: Do You--

Do Drugs: no sir
Have a crush: Yep
Think you've been in love: dont think so
Want to get married: eventually
Believe in yourself: most of the time

LAYER SIX: In the Past Month--

Drank alcohol: yes
Gone to the mall: yes
Eaten Sushi: no
Gone skating: no.
Dyed your hair: no.
Done something exciting: yeah

LAYER SEVEN: Have You Ever?--

Hid something from someone: yea
Stolen anything: when I was a lot younger. Now im just really scared and I would feel awful for doing it.

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Old--
Age you're hoping to be married: When I find the right person. Age doesnt matter
Age you're hoping to have children: see above
Want to travel to: everywhere



LAYER NINE: Perfect Mate--

Best Eye Color: I tend to gravitate to brown
Best Hair Color: see above
Short or Long Hair: Lately ive been more attracted to longer



LAYER TEN: What were you doing--

5 MINUTES AGO: This
1 HOUR AGO: Eating a salad and thinking
1 YEAR AGO: Hating my job because I worked for total creeps. Looks like much hasnt changed



LAYER ELEVEN: Finish the Sentence--

I Love: insane rain storms
I Feel: anxious
I Hate: sams club
I Hide: my problems
I Miss: the things I did during the semester and the people I saw.
I Need: to see certain people.

bippity boppity boo

Social norms and expectations are not for me.
I am a born American. I am allowed to be free.


Starting "dating" him today.... whatever dating means.

The ONLY problem that I have is that he is 17 and in hs.... and really I dont have a problem. It is other people who will have a problem. You know what other people? You can go fly a kite. You do not have to be affected by the decisions that I make in my life. Try living your own life for once instead of getting so caught up in other peoples. People are childish.

I almost got a tattoo today. Too much money. $100. Didnt take walk ins. Will go back when I have money.

Amen

passing thoughts

Went to adams show yesterday. it was fun. went with kae lani. I still dont like philly. Ive been talking to the boy more. I really enjoy it but something about it feels wrong. could be the age difference. think manager at work is cute. probably an asshole. shannon passed away last week. viewing was sadder that i thought. still working a lot. hate my job. good money though. need to post pictures on facebook soon. apartment is infested with ants. very gross. eating better. need to lose lots of weight. think ill go to the gym now.

Amen.