Dear Sleep,

You are amazing in my bed, the couch, the floor....everywhere...but everyone does you. Why do you have to be so good to me? Sometimes I want you to around more and sometimes I want you around less. How can I find a happy medium? You have amazing powers. You make everything ok in the end. You make me more level headed. As of late, I want you around more. Please pay me a visit. 

One of your admirers,

Stephanie

what the fuck

I dont know what I feel. Right now I am very irritable and pissy but also very chill. I dont know what to do with myself. I want to punch this one kid in the face really really bad because he doesn't ever shut the fuck up. Also....Debbie apologized to me today about being a bitch to me. It was a really long message and I showed sara and she said that it seemed really heart felt. I don't know if I believe it. Its sad... I believe the biggest assholes in the entire world but when someone takes the time to be nice to me and write me messages I dont believe a word they say. I just dont want to get hurt anymore. I missed my appointment this morning which might be the reason why I feel so weird.

I feel so weird.....so....sooo...weird. I want to make it stop.

OH....also.... im going to get my ass handed to me on monday when I dont know my music for opera. ugh

haiuferitnoudfvhajhualf

FUck fuckf uckf ckf cufkc.... basically im going insane. I need to get the hell out of here. away from this life im living. Im going to the counselor tomorrow to get some much needed help before I go absolutely freakin nuts. I cant even explain how I am feeling....for the most part I feel nothing..complete numbness to every emotion possible. I need to get out of my skin. Why do I want the attention of the worst people life has to offer? why do I like the broken people in this world. Its like if they arent really really broken I could give two shits about them. Fuck this life.fuck this stupid game that people play. THats what life is.... its a sick stupid fucking ame that people play and how do you win? You fuck over as many people as possible. I lose all the fucking time and im sick and tired of being this person. Please plase please... save me from myself. I am completely off my rocker and I need someone to save me. Put me in a jacket so at least I can hug yself.....no one else will.