Winter Break thus far

Ok...yes I know I havent written in this bad boy for quite a while but I have been very busy and without a computer.

School:
This past semester has been the worst semester of my life. I went through a lot of things mentally and almost ended up in the hospital but i managed to get through ...sort of. All of my grades arent posted yet but I know I didnt do what I needed to do so however the cards fall, I take full responsibility of the outcome.
I performed in the student run Cabaret which was sooooo much fun. I wish it was more than one night of performing but according to John... we are going to try to take the show to different high schools.
At the end of the semester, I auditioned for the musical that we are putting on for next semester,"fiddler on the roof" and it was the strangest experience of my life. I got called back for pretty much every womans role in the show and I ended up getting the smallest name role in the show. I know i know..."in theatre there are no small roles...only small actors" but I cant help but be upset with myself.

I have been working a whole lot this semester as well which probably put a large strain on the way I performed as a student. I changed departments from cashier to bakery and since that happened things have been kinda weird. I love working in the bakery... I am no ones bitch.. I can do things when I want and I can take my time...BUT! the manager doesnt know how to check peoples availability so I would get phone calls during classes asking why I wasnt at work. I think they think that my job is my life which is where they are terribly wrong. In actuality... when I get a job in the future whatever that may be... I will make sure that I have freedom. I will not end up being someones bitch. I understand that in anything you do in life there is a give and take but with this place I am giving too much....Sorry by the way if what im writing doesnt make any sense. I am really distracted by my brother singing and this really interested show on discovery health.

Christmas was a few days ago and it was nice. I love spending time with my family because it is something I dont get to do very often. I am a person who actually hates most holidays. I dont see the point in many of them and christmas is one of those holidays. People celebrate it because it was supposed to be the day that christ was born. If it is your moms birthday...you dont give gifts to your dad...and never ever does your mom say....HEY get me a pair of earrings and a nice coach bag. No.. this holiday is just so retarded which is why I really try not to feed into it. I refuse to tell my family what to get me for christmas so if they get me something I a) dont feel bad about them feeling obligated and b) am surprised. This christmas my mom got me a bluetooth (which I returned because I am never going to use it), some lounge pants and money. Cool. The rest of my family basically just gave me money becayse they dont know me well enough to get me something meaningful. oh yeah...thats another thing that really bothers me about this holiday. I feel like our loved ones should know us well enough to know what we like and or need so why should we give them a list. Ugh...I have always been this way by the way. ever since i found out that the big fat old man wearing red was actually my mother. yeah haha. ...
With the money that I collected for christmas and money that I saved from working I bought myself a HP laptop. Its pretty cool...Webcam and all...

Well...that is my update for now. Who knows when the next one will be. NEW YEARS SOON!!! so excited