um...so..yeah

this is going to be just me writing. if i feel like capitalizing something or putting a period somewhere i will because im just in one of those moods. my mind feels like i dont even know. its the strangest feeling i have ever felt in my life. i feel like i am becoming the person that i want to be. more outgoing happier dedicated but with that comes the bad side. my mind is fucked. im stuck. i cant even... i dont know. im just stuck. but going at the same time. like i have so many opportunities at my fingertips and i want to take advantage of all of them but something in me is telling me to slow down. im being more ballsy. i feel a bit used.
sorry i havent written in a while if you actually follow this.
ive been busy with starting school and doing fiddler on the roof. im enjoying it. ahhhhhh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk im tweaking out. i need to talk to someone. that i know that is. i feel like i want to talk to certain people and just chill with them. i dont even know what im talking about right now. im just rambling. i ...i...um..yeah ...thats about what is happening in my head right about now. shit fuck baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........i....i dont know what im doing