Back to school....

Ok so as you may know already... I am back to school.

Sunday was kind of hectic because everyone was moving in but I feel like I got a lot accomplished. I left my house around 11 but didnt get to school until a while later because there was a lot of traffic and it takes an hour and a half as it is. When I got there is was kind of awkward because Im not used to being at school and there was just an auora (sp). So after I moved in and got all of my groceries I helped heather make dinner and listened to her and her friends talk about things that kind of bothered me. I kind of felt like a 13th wheel in the whole deal. I mean .... I know her friends but Im not really friends with any of them. So after dinner, I went to my friend Debbies apartment and we had malibu bay breezes or somethnig and it was very good to see them again. When I left their apartment, I went over to Justins and we play guitar for a few seconds and we trudged over to the rec center where we took a weird picture thing. After that we went to wal*mart and justin Kae Lani and Antoine played jokes on the people walking around. I didnt do anything because I cant keep a straight face. Im not allowed to use his camera anymore either.

I dont feel like tying up the other days because im lazy and everything seems to have morphed into one LONG day.

Today I started classes and it just feels really weird to be back. When im in choir I feel kind of out of place and actually all together I feel sort of out of place. I dont know whats going on but I hope that everything fixes itself soon.

I hate that when I talk there are awkward pauses or that I can never say what im really thinking. Everything with me is anti-climactic and its so annoying. I always know what im trying to say but it never comes out quite right. I know I complain a lot and im sorry.. Im trying to fix it.. Im also sorry that im always ranting about people and I feel like im making things worse instead of better. I wish I always had something interesting to say.

Frustrated.