The Realization.

I really came to the conclusion today...set in stone.... that I truly care for the boy from the summer. The only time I feel anything at all is when I am around him and when i;m not around him I think about him and why he doesnt feel the same way about me. I want so badly to tell him how I feel about him but I dont want to make things awkward. If I knew for sure that I wouldnt see him again I would tell him how I feel. Im almost positive he is going to get accepted to Udel and so maybe the last day of choir ill tell him or during the summer ill text him or something. Its really bringing my mood down. Even if I didnt date him again...I just want to be a part of his life. I feel like I can understand him and I feel like he can be comfortable around me. I look forward to Thursdays and Sundays because I get to see him. Its so messed up. I feel crazy. I need some advice.