Bipolar

I feel like I am two totally different people lately. When I am in the music building and I am being productive I am happy and chipper and the moment I step in my house my mind runs wild and I an super depressed. I don't know who I am. I dont know how to make the people I like like me. I know they should like me for who I am but some people are so good at talking to the opposite sex and I just wasnt blessed with that gene. I choose to completely ignore people that I like instead of showing them that I like them. I feel like an idiot. I wish I had the house to myself right now. As much as I love Andrew....I wish he would just fucking go away. He is constantly here and I just want complete alone time. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I can't get over this anxiety and frustration. I just want to stop time so I can relax. I wish I could read minds.