Im sitting here at my desk in my apartment and my mind is racing. Classes, family issues, friends, self issues, music and repeat. Sometimes I just want to go back to when I was a little girl and I didnt have to worry about anything except for the imaginary dinosaurs that chased after me and my friends as we walked home from school.
Being back for the second semester of my second year feels really odd. My first semester, I really started to figure myself out, stood up for myself, showed some people a side I hate to show... basically became more of who I wanted to be. I made great friends and got close to people even though I have been afraid to let my guard down for so long.
So far, I have been myself EVEN MORE and the people who I have gotten close to are sort of making me feel like I shouldn't be that way. I also notice that some of the people I have gotten close to are very manipulative. I don't know if it was just the time I spent around them, but if it continues I dont know if I will stay friends with them. No one deserves to get stepped all over, especially if they dont deserve it.
Maybe everything I am feeling is just the way I have been feeling. Oh well.
Since I have been back to Rowan:
I unpacked all of my stuff and managed to destroy my room.
Hung out with Antoine and Jeff for a little bit.
Went to Bens rehearsal for his Grad. Recital.
Hung out with Steve and played Wii, guitar, and watched funny You tube videos.
Spent a lot of money.
Hung out with Deb and Sara.
and more but i dont even remember.
Tomorrow I start classes and I don't know if im ready. I havent really looked at my Carmen score and I am scared that Stiebs is going to rip us all a new one. Time will tell.
I have to go back to debs now to get my cell phone. I forgot it there. OH and to say welcome back to the Gal. haha
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